here is E singing "row, row, row your boat"
Friday, September 18, 2026
not enough
More a personal update than an E update, but important to mommy.
Some days it just feels like I'm not enough.
not enough mom time
not enough wife time
not enough intellectually stimulating activities for E
not enough run around time for E
not enough house work
not enough planning for school
not enough engagement in class
not enough classroom management
not enough
not enough
not enough
Even just looking at my poor neglected blog makes me feel not enough.
not enough entries
not enough documentation of all the amazing things E does every day.
On days like this, when I pick E up from daycare and she shouts with delight and runs across the room to me I am simultaneously filled with joy and guilt.
I think part of being a full time mom, part time teacher is just learning to cope with this feeling of being inadequate all the time. I'm so used to being able to pour everything into one thing and I can't do that anymore. I have to be okay with what was accomplished, even if I think it's not enough.
Some days it just feels like I'm not enough.
not enough mom time
not enough wife time
not enough intellectually stimulating activities for E
not enough run around time for E
not enough house work
not enough planning for school
not enough engagement in class
not enough classroom management
not enough
not enough
not enough
Even just looking at my poor neglected blog makes me feel not enough.
not enough entries
not enough documentation of all the amazing things E does every day.
I think part of being a full time mom, part time teacher is just learning to cope with this feeling of being inadequate all the time. I'm so used to being able to pour everything into one thing and I can't do that anymore. I have to be okay with what was accomplished, even if I think it's not enough.
to turn into posts...when there is more time
Tank laughing at 1 month
Tank outgrowing his newborn clothes and 0-3 mo clothes at 1 month
E entering the why? age (12/1)
E entering the tantrum stage
E's struggles at night: water, pictures, potty regresssion
E's imagination and playing, "you be buddy I'll be tiny" reinacting scenes, occasionally making her own. Making the chuggers out of her block train and "fixing" them with her tools.
E going to see the ballerinas in her pirate costume 11/28
E spending her own money on a hockey stick, candy, air hockey and cheetos
E at zoo lights and what a really good kid she really is.
Tank's first trip out to the zoo
Tank's superman photos
Surviving solo grocery shopping: E got her own list, then she wanted to ride anyway, the attendant unloading my car
Tank outgrowing his newborn clothes and 0-3 mo clothes at 1 month
E entering the why? age (12/1)
E entering the tantrum stage
E's struggles at night: water, pictures, potty regresssion
E's imagination and playing, "you be buddy I'll be tiny" reinacting scenes, occasionally making her own. Making the chuggers out of her block train and "fixing" them with her tools.
E going to see the ballerinas in her pirate costume 11/28
E spending her own money on a hockey stick, candy, air hockey and cheetos
E at zoo lights and what a really good kid she really is.
Tank's first trip out to the zoo
Tank's superman photos
Surviving solo grocery shopping: E got her own list, then she wanted to ride anyway, the attendant unloading my car
Tank at 6 months
Rolling
Sitting
Eating
Laughing
Kissing
Big boy bath
Swing
Shopping cart
High pchair
6 month clothes
Still not sleeping
P 11 2 4
First big fall ducky playground
Hairstyles man up, shag, Mohawk
Drooling
Teething
Hates being alone
First baseball game
Sitting
Eating
Laughing
Kissing
Big boy bath
Swing
Shopping cart
High pchair
6 month clothes
Still not sleeping
P 11 2 4
First big fall ducky playground
Hairstyles man up, shag, Mohawk
Drooling
Teething
Hates being alone
First baseball game
Tank at 6 months
sitting
Rolling
Laughing at sister and other kids
Kissing
Teething
Manipulating toys
Started foods at 5 mo, likes baby oatmeal, unlike Elora
Wanted food so much
Eating off fingertips
Has eaten mango, avocado, broccoli, baby oatmeal, sweet potato, regular potato, egg
Short, wide and big head
Doc "he just looks big"
Starting nights off in crib,but ending with mama
Rolling
Laughing at sister and other kids
Kissing
Teething
Manipulating toys
Started foods at 5 mo, likes baby oatmeal, unlike Elora
Wanted food so much
Eating off fingertips
Has eaten mango, avocado, broccoli, baby oatmeal, sweet potato, regular potato, egg
Short, wide and big head
Doc "he just looks big"
Starting nights off in crib,but ending with mama
E's home visit
Starting prek3
So excited
Ran to the door, gave the teachers hugs
Wanted to show them everything her bike, her room, her trampoline, wanted them to stay and play games
Ken made friends with mr. Stewart over games.
So excited
Ran to the door, gave the teachers hugs
Wanted to show them everything her bike, her room, her trampoline, wanted them to stay and play games
Ken made friends with mr. Stewart over games.
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